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I used to be a dancer

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 02:21:41 GMT

"I use to be a dancer."

Ouch. I hate the way that sounds, but its true.

I danced for 14 years at the same dance studio. I loved every minute of it. The costumes, the performances, the classes, the spotlight. I studied predominately, jazz, tap, ballet/pointe and hip-hop. Dancing is where my love for performing began. After 14 years of dancing you would think I'd have been ready for So You Think You Can Dance...sadly, I'm not.

Around year 10, or maybe earlier, my grandmother started trying to get me to change dance studios. She could see that I wasn't progressing. I didn't want to. I was comfortable, and I was one of THE top dancers at the studio, why change? I got too comfortable. So comfortable that I had peeked where I was, and I wasn't learning anything. On the instances I found myself outside of the comfort of my home studio I realized that I was no where near at the skill level of someone who had danced 14 years.

When I went to outside auditions for college I bombed. And there is where my dance career sort of died. I was mad. Mad at myself for not being all the dancer I could be, and getting so comfortable. Mad at my studio for continuing to take my money but not continuing to teach me. I can barely watch videos from the performances in my later years, to be frank, I looked horrible. There really was nobody to blame but myself. I made my choice, and now I live with it.

In the end, I am sure this all contributed to a greater purpose. It was my background in dancing that got me into acting, which I ended up studying in college, and enjoy and am semisuccessful at today. On occasion I still get to dance in the theater productions I'm in, which makes me happy .No regrets.

Moral of the story: Don't get complacent. It might be comfortable and fun being at the top of one level, but you've got to break through, you've got to get uncomfortable to continue to learn and achieve.

In honor of Friday the 13th

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 14:36:51 GMT

How about some creepy cakes? (not for the faint of heart, or the weak of stomach)

Hungry yet?

Happy Friday!!

Motivation

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 19:18:28 GMT

I'm having a hard time being motivated lately, for multiple reasons.

I'm sick. I hate being sick. It just sucks.

A cold
It creeps into your body through breath - mouth and nose.
Slowly tightens your chest and steals your breath away.
Like its name it makes you feel rigid, shivering on the inside
Aching down to your bones.

Although my cold motivated that quick little poem about colds, it seems to be wearing me down everywhere else.

No one is here
This week at work due to other people being sick, meetings, and one coworker having a car accident, the office has been really empty and quiet. Although peace and quiet is a good work environment for concentration, I'm more motivated to keep busy when other people are around me being busy.

Wrap me up in chicken noodle soup, dip me in orange juice, and call me in the morning...

Google makes you annoying to me

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 18:51:56 GMT

Our organization's general info e-mails get forwarded to my e-mail address. When I get mundane questions like "How do I get there?" or "Where is there to eat around there?" I usually think Hellooo, thats what Google is for! I work in marketing, so general inquiries really aren't my job, but I don't mind answering, I just think Google makes me annoyed because I feel like if I'm Googling to get the answer, so the person can google to get the answer. lol

Today I had someone e-mail and ask for nearby hotels. I Googled and replied to them with the closest hotel. They replied back to me, via iPhone, saying that they hotel was booked and they needed another suggestion.....

Now, normally I give people the benefit of the doubt. I don't mind helping people, even when they could have used the time it took to e-mail on a google search and found the information themselves. I have to keep in mind that not everyone is familiar with seach engines (shoking isn't it?). However, if you are e-mailing via iPhone the phone comes with a Google Maps app. You could have put in "hotels" and the zip code and got all the area hotels.

I mean, you have an iPhone! You need to e-mail someone for hotels with an iPhone? I'm sure there is an app for that....

Happy Monday

Saturday, November 07, 2009

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 18:18:53 GMT

I never fantasized about my knight in shining armor, although I am much a princess.
I never imagined my wedding day.
I never doodled my name, adding the last name of some sought after beau to mine.
I didn't like relationships.
I hated being a girlfriend and found myself easily bored by boyfriends.
With a career high of 2 months being my longest relationship I entered into a courting on 06/15/06.
I had no doubt this would end the same as all the others, me disinterested and him broken hearted.
A few months in I even tried to force the termination. Why get attached when things will just end badly?
Somewhere between 06/15/06 when you asked for the 50th time "Will you be my girlfriend?" and I answered "Ugh. Fine!" and 10/18/09 when we both said "I do," I fell in love.
Fell in love with you and the way you make me feel.
Suddenly I couldn't picture a day without you, or my life in my absence.
I love you.

White Beauty

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 22:10:52 GMT

The cosmetic company, Pond's, has the above commercial out in India. I watched the commercial three times to make sure I was getting the right message. I determined that I am seeing what this commercial is saying, loud and clear: Dear women of India, if you want to keep your man, you need to be as white as you can be, because white is beautiful. As the commercial says, their product can give you white beauty, in either a pinkish-white glow, or a pale white.

As a person of color this upsets me. Not because I don't think white is beautiful, but because I think all colors are beautiful, and marketing a product that attempts to sell one type of beauty over another is shameful.

Ewww, you like Obama?

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 11:36:56 GMT

Why is it that people see other country's like of our president (Obama) as something negative? Whenever non-American support of our president is mentioned its always something bad. Why?

I think its because American's are so xenophobic that they think other countries should have nothing but fear for us and our president, as we seem to fear other countries. Yes, we fear other countries. This war wouldn't have been supported as long as it has if people didn't think that we needed to bully other countries into our way of thinking in order to keep them from attacking us.

What about friendships? What about positive relationships and positive perceptions between nations? I've always thought that positive begets positive, and negative begets more negative. One day, somebody will have to step up and be the bigger person, to say "we were wrong, what can we do to make things right?" (yes, I know it is not as simple as just saying that, but the sentiment of that statement is what I mean).

I think President Obama has made good strides into "marketing" the U.S. in a more friendly way, and I don't see anything wrong with that.

We don't have to rule by fear...then again, why do we feel like we need to rule?

So you want to be cool?

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 19:09:44 GMT

Let me tell you what the cool people on Xanga are doing, or should be doing...they are participating in the Brain Fried Network Calendar Contest! You can get all the official rules and details HERE. To simplify, here is how it works:

1. Go to the BFN Store and purchase an item from it. Items start at about $4, and you can have a nice piece of Xanga swag.
2. Take a picture of whatever you buy (either solo, or with yourself) and send it to webmaster@brainfriednetwork.com
3. Make a post with your pictures and make sure to message or tag edlives.xanga.com in the post.

If you are one of the 12 people selected for the calendar (this is a contest folks, so make those pictures creative) then you receive a free year of Xanga premium or the credit equivalent!

THE DEADLINE HAS BEEN EXTENDED TO NOVEMBER 21, 2009, SO GET THOSE ENTRIES IN QUICK!!!!

Who doesn't want to be a part of a Xanga Calendar?

I have 8 days

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 13:23:43 GMT

I have 8 days to make 1,510 Xanga Credits in order to buy myself another year of Xanga Premium. So, I'm going to do what people usually do in this situation, ask you all to leave me a comment, and then I will return the favor my leaving a comment on one of your posts, making each exchange a 4 credit "profit" for both of us.

This will be good for me, as I really haven't gotten into the swing of reading again since my vacation. Since I'm "comment whoring" as they say, I mine as well solicit a comment that will help me to get to know you a little better.

In the comment box, please leave one, or all, or none, of the following:

1. Your Twitter url
2. The thing you feel keeps you motivated in life
3. A dream you are determined to make come true

What's your favorite horror or Halloween movie? (warning:scary pictures)

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 18:29:20 GMT

My favorite horror movie, hands down, is Candyman. Its my favorite because it is probably the scariest horror movie I've ever seen. I lie to you not, just google searching for pictures for this post made my heart beat speed up.

Legend has it that if you say his name five times in a mirror, he will appear. After seeing this movie the first time I couldn't be in a room with a mirror in the dark for MONTHS, I was 7 years old, now I'm 23 and the movie still creeps me out.

I am pretty sure that the main reason the movie was scarier to me than the likes of Jason or Freddy Kruegger was/is because Candyman is Black. Not that Black men by nature are scary, but Candyman could have been my next door neighbor. While Jason and Freddy were slashing little kids up in the suburbs, Candyman was a descendant of an abused slave killing people in the hood. That hit a little more close to home for me lol.

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